This lingering feeling has my head spinning and my blood pumping. You fully take over my body. I can’t seem to wrap my head around the idea of you fitting into my life. Over thinking is my nature and my thoughts immediately go to how complicated this could get. But why? I play out worse case scenarios just to torture myself. What stupidity. I just need to let it be; be in the moment and enjoy every sensation that takes over me. Everything about you keeps playing out like a dream. It’s coming in rapid succession and I think that’s why I keep getting this overwhelming feeling of being smothered, in the best way possible?! The past year my focus has been building amazing friendships. This leaves little room for major disappointment and heartache so the idea of putting myself out there is a little unsettling. Hmmm, but isn’t that life. It’s becoming more evident that my being craves another and you somehow seem to be fitting so perfectly. A connection I’ve never had before, a person who brings me to a level of euphoria that I didn’t think I could reach. Somebody who is willing to challenge what I stand for and who I think I am. I don’t want to hide when I’m with you, the desire to be open is unreal and it makes me squirm. Even if it’s a short time and not a long time, I need to appreciate what you bring to my life. Here’s to getting out of my head and letting go.